i am so gross.

i puke, i shiver, i cry, i am snotty.

my body is gross.

my skin doesn't fit me, my fat doesn't fit me.

my arms are gross.

my hands are burned, my skin is picked, my nails are chewed.

my head is gross.

my eyes are bumpy, my skin is pain, my lips burn.

my mind is gross.

i think of hurt, i think of pain, i think of red and green.

vomit is what i am.

it is gross, it burns and it is unwanted.

i am not a kid anymore.

i am just gross.

i do not deserve a name. i do not deserve a personality.

i have neither. i am neither.

i am and i will continue to exist.

it/it's they/them. i don't care.